derz sth wrong!

there’s a lump in my throat

memories elude me
people in my mind space clutter me

dialogues
monologues
some mine
some theirs

some looks
that you never forget
those eyes
haunt me still

How do I tell you
What reminds me of u?

Shall I talk about that car ad?
Or the comeback of a certain singer?
Just why do I buy your favourite colour?
Just why do I feel so happy
everytime i remember
that am in possession of a certain book..
that I did not return to you?

Just what do you want me to tell?
Or for a change.. you tell me..
Simply honey.. why don’t you get out?

The simple promise you made
With not a promise
But a confession
Two words
And a smile behind it…

The idea you evoked
In me
The long way it went

Just what all do you want me to tell?

The people around
My friends
My teachers
people who are both
My family
My books
My steps
To the marketplace
The drive
the bend of the curve
right there
where you changed your route
and drove another mile
with me

Just what all do you want me to tell??

Shall I tell how the winter remindz me of you?
Your first lie?
You said you hated it
And I later discovered
That you had lied..
just how i discovered you
through your lies..

The pictures you took of the mist
Made it to my desktop

Just what all do you want me to tell??

how the silence in my car
after i get tired of the blaring radio
remindz me
of the silent moments
we spent
discovering Dilli
its roads
its streetlightz
counting how many spread light
and so many
that just slept

Just what all do you want me to tell??
And whom?

The little boy
On the street
When I pass by him
How he stares at me
Just whom was I walking with?
arms around me .. hugging myself
Shall I tell him it is you?

Do I tell my ma.. I wanna hug her n cry
Coz I miss you

Should I tell pa
How I fared in the day
@work
@everywhere
During an interview
Or a shoot
Or when I see a tapestry
Or a wall hanging
Or the favourite stripes
you said you'd like to buy
when you find
a home!

do I tell pa?
the truth how the day passed?
that I was thinking about you?

My best friends
How I hide now
From them
My deepest thoughts
Aches n pains
How u have become my weakness
And my veins
How in that moment of realization
I so earn for
That I alwez
Just always
Find you.

Just what all do you want me to tell??

that
I know no more
What is love
Or what isn’t
And that
I don’t care

If there’s something
Beyond
Beneath
Or
Ahead

All I know
Is that
There is
A reason

Am tired of it
Yet
it exists

All I know
is that
you exist!

Do I?
I don’t care..
But
You..


..
you do exist!





...

Where?
in my last breath
at this moment
there I see you
coming to me
and leaving me…

there you are!















In My World!
..