Friday, April 30, 2010

so what if time moves on..




am glad at found memories
fond freindz

u see i still have sth
that i am gonna push deep into my pockets..
like i used to as a child
candiez n chocolates..

n every now n then
dig my handz deep again
touch n feel
the treasure
and giggle a wicked laugh..
with joy n fun
at the treasure that it held...

memories as precious
still i hold...
till i hold...

my gigglez
jz wudnt die..
jz wudnt die..
:)

P.S..this onez for saty n nikku ;P

Saturday, April 17, 2010

At times.. its good to watch people struggle!





I know its not a nice statement to make.. but I cant help it! This world IS strange!

If you believe that in love lies serenity.. haha.. take a look again!
If you believe that in lovelessness lies serenity.. haha.. you couldn’t have been more mistaken!

So.. strange are the ways of this world! And yet, I find, its good to watch! Especially, some people!

A human mind, they say, is compartmentalized. That’s why.. I think our lives are also compartmentalized. As we grow up, we do not grow into one, but many persons. That’s us.

For those who second the above statement… let me tell you.. this is the biggest truth of the life’s biggest lie.

Compartments aka diff aspects of our personalities.. are our realities .. those we try and run away from .. our core personal truth! Compartments are important.. because one side of you cannot face the other. Compartments are those comfortable arrangements.. (some call it the small mercies of life) so that in times of relief of those random moments that life throws at you, when you know that nobody except you is looking.. you peak into those rooms.. where truth meets truth.. face to face .. looks eye to eye.

And then, you rewind. Some develop the ability to stay put in those rooms for a lil’ longer. Some manage to become poets, writers. Others, drunkards. And some others .. all of these. It depends.. how you reject your room.. and still enter it.. or how you accept that room and lock it forever.

Either ways, we are mistaken.

You cannot help but enter. Why? These rooms actually hold the key to our souls. And its impossible for humans to not reconnect time to time.
You cannot help but exit. Its unimaginable to live inside the cocoon. Change is an eternal need. NO escaping that either!

In and out.
In and out.

Sometimes, it good to see people struggle!

Some you meet as authors, writers, poets, revolutionaries, drunkards… wishing they could be zombies. Some you meet as zombies… ever smiling, ever lying. None can help it!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

blank-ed!




She sits in front of her computer screen. Not knowing what to do. Not knowing what she wants.


Is she really a demanding person as others tell her she is? Well that she is.. she reverts to her own brain query.. but is she being too demanding? Really? She wonders.

Demanding from life..

Expecting ‘too much’.

Well! she doesn’t know how to figure that one! An hour glass.. whichever side upside down .. looks just the same.. she thinks! But somewhere time is slipping by. And she .. is watching it!

She scratches her head now.. repetitive thoughts have been irritating her! How much can one stare into a screen! What does she want to see then? The world .. she tells herself.. she wants to travel.. no actually roam.. she wants to live it differently.. a times as a pauper and well most times.. richly…

That’s allright .. she tells herself.. she’s having enough paupery times at the moment.. too many thoughts but those that leave her with nothing.. abs nothing in particular! Didn't someone say its a cycle? Good times followed by bad.. paupery times followed by rich ones? She scratches her head again..

But till then..

Its her favourite activity – to do nothing! Its her favourite time of the day – no time..
For her, there is no dawn, no dusk.. no nightfall.. no daytime.. she just keeps waiting for any of these to happen..

Do people like to run away? She’s waiting for time to happen..

She fears too.. the future! Will it make her happy or sad? That’s a big worry on the little mind that she calls her own..

And she hates it when it stops working..
And her mind.. although technically.. minds don’t feel.. but her’s hates her back..

at times that is..

Why?

Because she cant make out her life. She cant judge good from bad.. the 'want' button from the 'unwant' one.. she can't reach a conclusion!

She’s greedy .. has created too many options for herself.. and now unable to put a finger to it .. and pick up that piece of cake!
She’s been greedy indeed.

And.. so.. now.. she stares .. blankly at her screen..



And the screen stares back at her!