I always write a blog towards the end of each year. Kinda think I would like to look back at it at some point in future. So, I write.
I am not at my expressive best, really. I am in a somewhat puzzled space. Deciding on what to do. Deciding to wait. Waiting to decide. So all in all... not in the clearest of time and mind.
The year has been good, I suppose. Difficult but good. There have been many challenges on the way. But I have come through. The highlight throughout the year, has really been ..being married. It is almost two years now... and I think I understand it a lil' better now. I am calmer, now. I am easier, now. I suppose I have grown.
As a person, I am not settled yet. I am restless. Sometimes, I remember fragments from the past. But I am ok. I am ok to move on. And I think that is real good.
I loved travelling overseas this year. Loved meeting friends. But I missed being together. Somehow, marriage has changed me. More than I think I give it credit for.
I think the year has passed by real quick. I still can't shake the feeling of everything going by real fast. But I guess so is life. I would like to take a break sometime. But my choices I feel will lead me differently.
I need to learn to be less anxious. That much is clear. I need to smile more. I need to .. be many more things.
What I promise myself though, is that I will try. That I will make a genuine effort. To be less demanding of life and enjoy that that I have. And to give life another chance.
