Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Hoping, yet again.

At this point, last year, I was trying to decide my destiny. And here I stand again, watching how time flies by. Everything is in a blur. In a state of flux. I am standing here right now, I know, but I have this great feeling, that I am still in the flow, continuing the journey forward, being swept by time. Left with only rare moments of notice, such as this.

Should I be happy? But so much has happened otherwise.
Should I be sad? But so much has happened otherwise.

I am calm then, smiling when it is time to smile. And..

I had set goals for myself. To grow. Had also decided on a direction, vaguely. But there were other things on my mind. Other things that I longed for.

And yet, as I stand here today, I realize, it was those vague directions that have taken over, held a strong path, given me the foothold, when everything else fell apart. It was those goals, that I had set alongside, that made my destiny.

It makes me wonder then, again.. of what a man's true dream is. What destiny really is? Is it those pebbles that we pick alongside through the journey, or drop them on the path that help us find the way back home? Or is it the sugar candy cottage that enticed us each, like lil' children? Like Hansel and Gretel.

I do not have all the answers. Despite all the optimism that exists in this world, I do not have the answers.

But I know this - that I do smile, when it is time to smile. And..

So I am watching life, yet again. Being swept, yet again. But holding another hand. Hoping that it shall lead me safely, to whatever my true destiny is.

Hoping, yet again.