Am feeling crowded in the inside
And lonely on the outside
Am feeling devastated
But on this planet.. I seem to have everything physical that shud be there
Am feeling scared
Yet am putting up the am ok front..
Am wondering.. jz wat is this state mind?
By nights.. I dream.. weird thingz
By morningz.. I wake to equally weird realities
It makes perfect sense to the whole world around me..
And I if I go there .. stand with them – the crowd.. it makes sense to me as well..
This is how thingz happen maybe.. how it goez.. life iz..
only
I dunno y is it happening to me!
I dunno wats more real to me..
My dream
Or my reality
I sumtimes choke at the very thought of living a life like this forever..
I choke at what the future might bring on .. if I go with the flow now..
I detest
Yet I don’t know
Cant feel
Wats right
How am I to choose then?
Am powerless
Am helpless
These are my dreamz…
Dat I claim are more real like…
Am torn
I feel wounded
And yet .. my frnz.. my world.. u wudnt know how…
Wat am I to do??
Anyone?
Anyhow?
Know a thing or two I can use?
I have alwez blvd in personal solutionz
Not a naught of it tonight…
Am hapless
But am still livin
Sumwer
In the lost recesses of my mind
And yet I am the one…helping me lose it…
I do not know wats the natural course…
Am suddenly all alone…
Am suddenly breaking down!
Am suddenly myself…
Am suddenly a nothing!
2 comments:
Interesting set of thoughts! Looking fwd to happier jottings next time! Good work, keep writing!
thank u! i shud hopefully feel better by the next time ;)
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