I have to say it…I just have to!
Last nite it was… that I said to myself…aah the soul! Do u really care for love? Or atleast, do you really care for ego?
Then y did these two have to fight?
My tears told me that I was missin him
The anguish said – simply.. that you love him!
The tightly shut eyes – wat picture were they trying to remember .. or push away?
Something in – where the heart lies.. constricted! Too bad…too late!
Or too early to die of it!
Oh how I want u! I blurted out!
Why didn’t I ever say it before?
When I had the time! The situation! The feeling!
Only why does pain have to reveal the powerful feeling to me?
It’d be a lie to say I haven’t known it before…and I wonder now…in front of these feelingz…simply how did ego matter? But it did… it brushed my feeling away!
Why did I let it?
How I miss u now…my company…my desire…my everything…
Am not even lonely without u!
Am not even nothing without you
I simply don’t want to exist without you!
For the last few days…I have been observing the speed of thought!
I pray with all my heart…that you can hear me now…listen to my feelings!
And come here…to where I am…hold me with your hands…and take me to your land!
Where I shall stay your companion…
Where I shall bear the thoughts, the feelings…the experience…of yours and mine…into this world!
Where we shall raise … the love…in this world…this life!
Where I shall be you …you me…in the inside…and different in every possible way …to complete the outside!
Forgive me…I ask you today…for if my hurt is true…then I have hurt you the same!
Far worse…I have caused it!
In life…I’ve seen…that one can always justify both sides! Everything …almost everything has a justification! But at this point … there’s none!
I do not know what’s coming!
But am not sure…if I’ll ever forgive myself…for my ego!
